Last weekend we spent a lot of time doing yard work. I was mostly squatting and the following days to come had increasing pain in the ball of my foot. I mostly ignored it as I was a dancer and pretty used to pain in the feet. I mean, I used to dance on pointe with broken toes so a little foot pain in nbd to me. Well, it got to the point of not being able to drive and barely being able to walk. The pain was waking me up at night. I went to the doctor and he said to stay off it and ice is as much as possible! That is so impossible!! It's really hard for me because I can't stand when my house is messy. I really, really bothers me. And also, I have a 19 month old. Enough said. Rob has been helpful but he worked all weekend and since he works nights, he sleeps during the day. Luckily, I have stayed off of it some and it is feeling much better. My house is a disaster but I need to be able to walk on my foot because.....

WE'RE GOING TO DISNEY WORLD ON SATURDAY!!!

Okay, I'm a little excited. I have never been to Disney. I am fully prepared to let the 4 year old girl in me out. I'm also super excited because we're going with Rob's family and it's always nice to see them and get to spend time with them. It is also our anniversary that week and we spent our honeymoon in Florida so it will be fun to be back there and the same time of year. Happy 3 years babe! (More on that later)

Not much else has been going on here lately. The weather has been absolutely beautiful so we've been spending a lot of time outside. Carson is awesome as usual and talks non stop. He still has his baby language where he just babbles but he also is putting together 3 and 4 word sentences. He will also repeat pretty much any word we tell him to say. I love that little boy so much!  

Here are some pictures of our recent happenings....

Carson was being naughty and spent some time in timeout

Out and about and Car with his chicken nugget

Wearing Rob's flip flops

One of our 6 Rhododendron bushes 

Car's sippy in my cup holder because I was tired of him throwing it

Enjoying the sunset outside

It amazes me that he sleeps 

I wanted to say Thank You to everyone who commented or sent me personal messages/emails on my last post. I really and truly appreciate all of your kind words and support. And just so you know, we would never make a decision that big based on pressure. We continually pray about things like that and trust in our Heavenly Father to help guide us. I am so grateful for the gospel and grateful for a loving father in heaven who knows us. How amazing is that? He knows us each and loves us and is so willing to help us out. I see blessings in my life everyday and I know without a doubt that he hears our prayers. We might not get an answer right away but he does hear us and he does answer us.

Again, thank you so much for your kind words! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

All through out my life I've had moments where I've felt left out. I'm pretty sure we all have. Some of those times were when I couldn't play with my brother and older kids outside because I had to come in and take a nap. Or when I was the only with a ZERO interest in pokemon cards. I know, I could have pretended to like them and traded cards and what not but seriously, I had no desire to and I just didn't see what the fuss was all about. I was literally the only kid in both 4th grade classes that wasn't trading cards during recess time. I went and swung by myself. Some other times I felt left out where when I was the only one who didn't go to a birthday party because it was on Sunday or I was the only one wearing a shrug over my homecoming dress. Looking back at these moments I realize they were pretty insignificant.

I've reached a point in my life where I'm feeling like that again. Why? Because I'm not pregnant right now and it seems like EVERYONE is. Okay, okay, I know that not everyone is but so many people I know are and 2 of my closest friends are. I feel like now that Carson is 18 months it's time to start  making another one. I wish I didn't feel this pressure but it comes from people around me being pregnant who have kids younger than Carson and it also comes from church. I feel like were the only family with 1 kid. I KNOW a lot of other couples have felt this way too.

Want to know something? Something that makes me feel selfish? The reason I'm not pregnant right now? Because I'm scared. I was so sick last time. Like, really really sick. Loosing 20 pounds in 6 weeks sick. I'm afraid of being that sick and having to take care of Carson. He's not one to sit and watch tv so I have to ALWAYS be watching him. Want to know why else? We're going to Disney World this month and I want to enjoy it. I want to be able to go on the rides and not spend the whole time in the bathroom. That one makes me feel so guilty. Another reason? Carson is so amazing. Seriously, he is so good and easy and we haven't wanted to change that. Our little life is stressful at times but for the most part, pretty simple and peaceful. What if our next baby has colic or is a lot more difficult then Car was? Could I handle that? Oh and remember my PPD? Ya, worried about that too.


All those things make me feel so guilty. But this is where we are right now. Just the 3 of us.