Rob and I celebrated 2 years of marriage over the weekend!! Our official anniversary was the 29th but we went out on the 28th. We went to dinner at Zaks which was delicious as always and then we went to the driving range. I know that might sound like a weird way to celebrate and anniversary but we really enjoy going together. The one we went to is really cool. It is 2 stories! So we went to the second story because it made us feel like we were hitting the balls further. (When I say 'we' I really mean me ;) ) We seriously have a blast and laugh the whole time. After the driving range we went to the store and picked up some desert (cream cheese cinnamon rolls) and Martinellies. Oh and some baby food :) We picked up Carson from my moms, went home, put Car to bed and enjoyed our yummy cinni rolls and sipped our cider. It was a beautiful evening.
These last 2 years have been pretty crazy. The first year was hard. We has some seriously tough and scary times. Today I am happy to say that with the help of counseling, a lot of patience and love and willingness to better ourselves, Rob and I are more in love today then we ever thought possible. Our love is so deep and I know that as the years go by it will just grow deeper and deeper. I am so grateful to be married. I was watching a reality TV show the other night and the girls were talking about how they hate being single and wish they were married. I understand why they want to be married. Because it is amazing!!! I am so grateful to my Rob for all that he does for me and Carson. He makes me so happy everyday. Thinking about how much I love him is making me tear up.
Here are some of the things that went on in our 2nd year of marriage.....
Moved to a new apartment. 2 bedroom because we had a baby on the way!!
Went to lots of doctors appointments to check on baby
Went to Phoenix for Rob's little brothers wedding in August.
I officially became a stay at home wife and mom to be
WELCOMED OUR SWEET BOY INTO THE WORLD
Adjusted to being parents
Learned just how amazing it is to hold your own child. The child that we made.
Got 2 new cars
Went to Phoenix again. This time for a funeral
Celebrated our 2nd Christmas together; first one with a baby
Learned that no matter what, we love each other and we know we are meant to be together. We now know just how strong we are. With, prayer, faith and a lot of love we can get through anything.
I love you so much my Rob. I look forward to many more years with you, many more adventures and lots more babies!!!
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Friday, May 20, 2011
Fifteen for Friday
Carson sneezed on me today...with a mouth full of carrots.
I got to hold my baby cousin today. He is 20 days old and soooo tiny. I loved it.
Last night, I had a dream my dad died :(
My Rob left me the sweetest note today. Love him.
When I can't fall asleep, I don't count sheep. I count my blessings. The list is infinite and I fall asleep feeling very grateful.
Some lady was trimming our trees today. Random.
I am very grateful to have a friend whose hubby has the same job as my hubby. Same schedule and everything. It's so nice to have someone to vent to who gets it. Love you J! :)
I was 9 months pregnant in October. Whenever I saw pumpkins I felt a connection to them. We totally understood each other. ;)
I loooove being married. Having an incredible husband is the best. We are happier then ever. Such a blessing.
I plan on teaching ballet in the fall and I am so excited!!
We went to a mariners game on Wednesday with B and J. We had a blast. I love that we can have a great time without drinking. Who needs that yucky stuff?
2 of my favorite little girls are coming over tomorrow!
Carson fell asleep in my arms today. We napped nose to nose for 3 hours. Pure joy.
I'm grateful that I had Carson when I was (am) 21. I don't feel like we have to rush to have another one anytime soon.
I've had all our windows open all day today. I love the fresh air and sunlight shining into our home.
Have a great weekend!
I got to hold my baby cousin today. He is 20 days old and soooo tiny. I loved it.
Last night, I had a dream my dad died :(
My Rob left me the sweetest note today. Love him.
When I can't fall asleep, I don't count sheep. I count my blessings. The list is infinite and I fall asleep feeling very grateful.
Some lady was trimming our trees today. Random.
I am very grateful to have a friend whose hubby has the same job as my hubby. Same schedule and everything. It's so nice to have someone to vent to who gets it. Love you J! :)
I was 9 months pregnant in October. Whenever I saw pumpkins I felt a connection to them. We totally understood each other. ;)
I loooove being married. Having an incredible husband is the best. We are happier then ever. Such a blessing.
I plan on teaching ballet in the fall and I am so excited!!
We went to a mariners game on Wednesday with B and J. We had a blast. I love that we can have a great time without drinking. Who needs that yucky stuff?
2 of my favorite little girls are coming over tomorrow!
Carson fell asleep in my arms today. We napped nose to nose for 3 hours. Pure joy.
I'm grateful that I had Carson when I was (am) 21. I don't feel like we have to rush to have another one anytime soon.
I've had all our windows open all day today. I love the fresh air and sunlight shining into our home.
Have a great weekend!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
This annoyed me
Awhile ago, as in a few months ago, someone asked me how Carson was sleeping at night. I excitedly told her that he is a great sleeper! He has pretty much always slept through the night. Even as a new born. You know what she said to that......
"Oh you haven't experienced real motherhood then."
Are.You.Kidding.Me?
So are you saying that nursing, pumping, changing countless diapers during the day, making bottles, feeding, playing with, holding, rocking, burping, cleaning up spit up, bathing, nail clipping, taking to the doctor, singing songs, being silly, comforting when teething, cheering up when fussy, and loving my baby unconditionally isn't real motherhood?
Not to mention, all the laundry and cleaning that also goes on. Oh, and the postpartum depression and stretch marks.
Sorry for the rant but it really irritated me. I'm done now :)
"Oh you haven't experienced real motherhood then."
Are.You.Kidding.Me?
So are you saying that nursing, pumping, changing countless diapers during the day, making bottles, feeding, playing with, holding, rocking, burping, cleaning up spit up, bathing, nail clipping, taking to the doctor, singing songs, being silly, comforting when teething, cheering up when fussy, and loving my baby unconditionally isn't real motherhood?
Not to mention, all the laundry and cleaning that also goes on. Oh, and the postpartum depression and stretch marks.
Sorry for the rant but it really irritated me. I'm done now :)
Weekend
I haven't blogged much lately but I really haven't had too much to blog about. We had a great weekend though!
On Friday, the weather was beautiful so we took Carson to a park that had baby swings. We put him in it and he smiled at first but then he wasn't too sure about. After the park we went and bought a rug and some out door chairs for our back deck. We had fun playing out there with Carson. Rob bbq'd ribs and burgers for dinner! Yum!! Later that night we went over to B and J's to hang out.
Saturday we went to Family Day at Rob's work. The weather was beautiful! The forecast said it was supposed to be cold and rainy but we were praying for nice weather all week. We enjoyed food, games, music, basketball a train ride, a cake walk and just being outside with friends and family. We all came home a little sunburned though! Oops! We weren't expecting much but it ended up being really fun. I'm even wearing my AMR ems week 2011 shirt I got there right now :)
It was a wonderful weekend. I looove my little family. Life is good and I am happy :)
On Friday, the weather was beautiful so we took Carson to a park that had baby swings. We put him in it and he smiled at first but then he wasn't too sure about. After the park we went and bought a rug and some out door chairs for our back deck. We had fun playing out there with Carson. Rob bbq'd ribs and burgers for dinner! Yum!! Later that night we went over to B and J's to hang out.
Saturday we went to Family Day at Rob's work. The weather was beautiful! The forecast said it was supposed to be cold and rainy but we were praying for nice weather all week. We enjoyed food, games, music, basketball a train ride, a cake walk and just being outside with friends and family. We all came home a little sunburned though! Oops! We weren't expecting much but it ended up being really fun. I'm even wearing my AMR ems week 2011 shirt I got there right now :)
It was a wonderful weekend. I looove my little family. Life is good and I am happy :)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Letter to 16 year old me
Dear 16 year old self,
I know you probably wont listen to this but that's okay. You'll learn in time. The very first thing I want to tell is you is, don't trust that boy. You know the one. The one who you think is really cute. The one who flirts with you a lot. The one you think you love. He is no good. Listen to your mom when she says he is bad news. I beg you not to trust him. He is going to hurt you really really badly. He is going to break your heart and crush your spirit. He is going to make you cry yourself to sleep. He is going to make you feel worthless and ugly.
After this boy breaks your heart you are going to feel awful about yourself. Please try to remember that you are beautiful and worth someone amazing. Please don't don't loose faith and forget to pray and read your scriptures. Please try not to feel like you'll never find a man who loves you for who are. I know that you are feeling like nothing but a piece of meat but your future husband is incredible. He is going to love every little thing about you. Your flaws will be what he loves the most. He is going to take you to the temple and be sealed to you for time and all eternity. He is going to love you so much that he wants to be with you forever.
Please respect your mom. You think she does things just to upset you but it's really because she loves you and knows what is best for you. You think she just doesn't understand but trust me, she does. She sees what you are doing and her heart aches for you. Please just listen to her. She knows what she is talking about. Even though you are totally going to defy her she is still going to love you unconditionally and be your best friend. You are really going to see just how much she does for you in a few years and you will be amazed.
Be more patient with your little brother. He is only 6 years old and he adores you. He is going to grow up and before you know he will be a tween boy hanging out with his friends. He isn't always going to want to cuddle with you on the couch or jump on the bed or dance around to high school musical with you. Pretty soon he is going to be just about the same size as you. Please cherish these moments with him and he is just a sweet kindergartner with out much of a care except for what jersey he is going to wear.
Be smart in the friends that you choose. Choose friends who are going to support your standards. If you find yourself not wanting to tell your mom where you are going or who you are going to be with, then don't. Surround yourself with people who care about you, not about what others think of them. You have younger people watching you and you need to be a good example to them. Show them the right thing to do. If you don't, show them that you can still be a good person and you can still have beautiful future and family.
You are going to get your first job working at Right Start Montessori. Mandy, you are going to love it. Those kids are going to be what keeps you going during a heart breaking, lonely time in your life. You will have horrible days at school and when you get to work the kids will run up to you and hug you saying, "Yay Miss Mandy is here!" You will have kids telling you they love you and that will melt your saddened heart and make you smile. This job will help you realize what you want to do in life. You will never forget those students and the love they had for you and the love you had for them. That job will always hold a special place in your heart. Don't call out so much. I know you are tired after school but they are depending on you. Maybe try to save your money too instead of going and blowing it all at Abercrombie as soon as you get paid.
Be better about your school work. Don't talk so much in class. Please understand that your social life is not what high school is about. Pay attention in class and do your homework.
Mandy, please try to strengthen your testimony. I know that you have one but at this time in your life you are going to have very little faith. Please know that your father in heaven loves you and knows you. He is just waiting for you to come to him. Pray to him. Tell him everything on your mind and in your heart. You will find that once you do you will feel a deep warmth and love that you have never felt before. Your life is going to become much happier once you reconnect with him.
Like I mentioned before, your husband is amazing. He is going to come at a time in your life when you are least expecting it but when you meet him, you will instantly know that he is the one. He is going to treat you like a princess and make you so happy.
You are going to be a mother. The thing you have always wanted, a baby, is going to come to you. You will get pregnant about 8 months into your marriage. Mandy you are going to feel indescribable love. You are going to love that beautiful baby boy with every fiber in your being. You are going to embrace motherhood. You will feel no greater joy then seeing your little one look you in the eyes and smile. The connection you feel with your son will be heavenly.
All the things you are going to go through during your 16th year of life are going make you a strong, smart woman. Right now they may seem never ending but you will find peace and happiness. I promise.
Love, 21 year old self.
I know you probably wont listen to this but that's okay. You'll learn in time. The very first thing I want to tell is you is, don't trust that boy. You know the one. The one who you think is really cute. The one who flirts with you a lot. The one you think you love. He is no good. Listen to your mom when she says he is bad news. I beg you not to trust him. He is going to hurt you really really badly. He is going to break your heart and crush your spirit. He is going to make you cry yourself to sleep. He is going to make you feel worthless and ugly.
After this boy breaks your heart you are going to feel awful about yourself. Please try to remember that you are beautiful and worth someone amazing. Please don't don't loose faith and forget to pray and read your scriptures. Please try not to feel like you'll never find a man who loves you for who are. I know that you are feeling like nothing but a piece of meat but your future husband is incredible. He is going to love every little thing about you. Your flaws will be what he loves the most. He is going to take you to the temple and be sealed to you for time and all eternity. He is going to love you so much that he wants to be with you forever.
Please respect your mom. You think she does things just to upset you but it's really because she loves you and knows what is best for you. You think she just doesn't understand but trust me, she does. She sees what you are doing and her heart aches for you. Please just listen to her. She knows what she is talking about. Even though you are totally going to defy her she is still going to love you unconditionally and be your best friend. You are really going to see just how much she does for you in a few years and you will be amazed.
Be more patient with your little brother. He is only 6 years old and he adores you. He is going to grow up and before you know he will be a tween boy hanging out with his friends. He isn't always going to want to cuddle with you on the couch or jump on the bed or dance around to high school musical with you. Pretty soon he is going to be just about the same size as you. Please cherish these moments with him and he is just a sweet kindergartner with out much of a care except for what jersey he is going to wear.
Be smart in the friends that you choose. Choose friends who are going to support your standards. If you find yourself not wanting to tell your mom where you are going or who you are going to be with, then don't. Surround yourself with people who care about you, not about what others think of them. You have younger people watching you and you need to be a good example to them. Show them the right thing to do. If you don't, show them that you can still be a good person and you can still have beautiful future and family.
You are going to get your first job working at Right Start Montessori. Mandy, you are going to love it. Those kids are going to be what keeps you going during a heart breaking, lonely time in your life. You will have horrible days at school and when you get to work the kids will run up to you and hug you saying, "Yay Miss Mandy is here!" You will have kids telling you they love you and that will melt your saddened heart and make you smile. This job will help you realize what you want to do in life. You will never forget those students and the love they had for you and the love you had for them. That job will always hold a special place in your heart. Don't call out so much. I know you are tired after school but they are depending on you. Maybe try to save your money too instead of going and blowing it all at Abercrombie as soon as you get paid.
Be better about your school work. Don't talk so much in class. Please understand that your social life is not what high school is about. Pay attention in class and do your homework.
Mandy, please try to strengthen your testimony. I know that you have one but at this time in your life you are going to have very little faith. Please know that your father in heaven loves you and knows you. He is just waiting for you to come to him. Pray to him. Tell him everything on your mind and in your heart. You will find that once you do you will feel a deep warmth and love that you have never felt before. Your life is going to become much happier once you reconnect with him.
Like I mentioned before, your husband is amazing. He is going to come at a time in your life when you are least expecting it but when you meet him, you will instantly know that he is the one. He is going to treat you like a princess and make you so happy.
You are going to be a mother. The thing you have always wanted, a baby, is going to come to you. You will get pregnant about 8 months into your marriage. Mandy you are going to feel indescribable love. You are going to love that beautiful baby boy with every fiber in your being. You are going to embrace motherhood. You will feel no greater joy then seeing your little one look you in the eyes and smile. The connection you feel with your son will be heavenly.
All the things you are going to go through during your 16th year of life are going make you a strong, smart woman. Right now they may seem never ending but you will find peace and happiness. I promise.
Love, 21 year old self.
True love is
True love is asking if you can get me anything every time you go into the kitchen
True love is sending me sweet texts all day while you're at work
True love is surprising me with a huge mountain dew when I was expecting a small
True love is letting me sleep in on your days off even though you worked 12 hours the day before
True love is marrying me in the temple. For time and all eternity
True love is loving me even though I can be pretty silly and obnoxious
True love is not caring when I take bites of your food without asking
True love is telling me I look beatuifully perfect after I have just cried hysterically and have make up all over my face
True love is making a beautiful baby with me
True love is comforting me when I am scared
True love is hiking down to a beautiful waterfall and then giving me a piggy back ride on the way up
True love is taking me shopping and helping me pick things out
True love is letting me read even though you get bored when I do
True love is staying home to take care of Carson because I'm sick
True love is letting me wear your shirts to bed
True love is holding my hand in the car
True love is kissing my forehead
True love is staying up late talking with me even though you are really tired
True love is being an amazing father
True love is cleaning out the car before I get in it
True love is opening doors for me
True love is watching Glee with me
True love is making me a sandwich just the way I like it
True love is getting me a maple bar on your way home from the gym
True love is laughing with me
True love is made up words we have
True love is teaching me how to do a summersault and laughing when I can't
True love is working hard for our family
True love is thinking my body is beautiful even after having a baby
True love is you. My best friend. My Eternity.
True love is sending me sweet texts all day while you're at work
True love is surprising me with a huge mountain dew when I was expecting a small
True love is letting me sleep in on your days off even though you worked 12 hours the day before
True love is marrying me in the temple. For time and all eternity
True love is loving me even though I can be pretty silly and obnoxious
True love is not caring when I take bites of your food without asking
True love is telling me I look beatuifully perfect after I have just cried hysterically and have make up all over my face
True love is making a beautiful baby with me
True love is comforting me when I am scared
True love is hiking down to a beautiful waterfall and then giving me a piggy back ride on the way up
True love is taking me shopping and helping me pick things out
True love is letting me read even though you get bored when I do
True love is staying home to take care of Carson because I'm sick
True love is letting me wear your shirts to bed
True love is holding my hand in the car
True love is kissing my forehead
True love is staying up late talking with me even though you are really tired
True love is being an amazing father
True love is cleaning out the car before I get in it
True love is opening doors for me
True love is watching Glee with me
True love is making me a sandwich just the way I like it
True love is getting me a maple bar on your way home from the gym
True love is laughing with me
True love is made up words we have
True love is teaching me how to do a summersault and laughing when I can't
True love is working hard for our family
True love is thinking my body is beautiful even after having a baby
True love is you. My best friend. My Eternity.
If I were a gardner I'd put my tulips and your tulips together :)
Today was a beautiful day!! We went to the tulip festival in Mount Vernon. It's about an hour and 15 minutes from where we live. It is so beautiful there. They have rows and rows of bright colorful tulips. We went with our friends the H family. We didn't stay for too long because the kids and baby were starting to melt down but it was really fun to walk around, enjoy the sunshine and take pictures.
Isn't it just gorgeous there?
P.S. Have you ever checked out picnik.com? If you haven't, you should. I edited the 2nd picture using picnik.com and I am obsessed!
Isn't it just gorgeous there?
P.S. Have you ever checked out picnik.com? If you haven't, you should. I edited the 2nd picture using picnik.com and I am obsessed!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Randoms
Rob and I will be celebrating 2 years of marriage this month! I have some ideas for him that I am really excited about! More on that after the 29th :)
Carson is 22 pounds 6 ounces and 29 inches tall. He is wearing size 12-18 month size clothes and the boy is only 6 months old...
It makes me sad at how fast he is growing. Stay my tiny baby forever!! Oh wait, too late. You're already huge and you have 2 teefies! (teeth) ;)
I gave up drinking mountain dew. I gave it up because A. I was drinking WAY too much of it which increased my anxiety and made me not able to sleep. B. Because it's horrible for you and C. Because Rob said I could get a new Coach purse if I didn't have any for 90 day.
Ya I lasted 2 weeks. I gave in. I talked myself into it by saying that I already have 2 coach purses, a coach wallet and shoes and I didn't really like any of this seasons bags. Sad huh?
I used to be able to read a book a day. I love reading. Love it. Now, having a crazy busy 6 month old, that is no longer the case. I find little moments here and there to read and now reading one book takes weeks. I would love a vacation where I could go to just read and read.
Rob has been eating a lot healthier and working out. He has always been super gorgeous and sexy but he is looking mighty fine! Mmm I just love that man!!!
I am now a nursery leader at church. It's so fun and nice that I can bring Car with me and he can just play. I do miss helping Rob teach the 13 year olds though.
We are going on vacation end of June!! We are so excited!! We're going to Colorado with Rob's family. We can't wait! We are driving so we'll also stop and stay in Utah for a few days so we'll get to see family there as well!!
Why do you get less diapers for more money the bigger they get?
Carson has been sleeping really well the last few nights which results in a wonderful nights sleep and a soaking wet baby and sheets. I have washed his bedding so many times lately.
That's all I can think of right now. Be back soon!!
Carson is 22 pounds 6 ounces and 29 inches tall. He is wearing size 12-18 month size clothes and the boy is only 6 months old...
It makes me sad at how fast he is growing. Stay my tiny baby forever!! Oh wait, too late. You're already huge and you have 2 teefies! (teeth) ;)
I gave up drinking mountain dew. I gave it up because A. I was drinking WAY too much of it which increased my anxiety and made me not able to sleep. B. Because it's horrible for you and C. Because Rob said I could get a new Coach purse if I didn't have any for 90 day.
Ya I lasted 2 weeks. I gave in. I talked myself into it by saying that I already have 2 coach purses, a coach wallet and shoes and I didn't really like any of this seasons bags. Sad huh?
I used to be able to read a book a day. I love reading. Love it. Now, having a crazy busy 6 month old, that is no longer the case. I find little moments here and there to read and now reading one book takes weeks. I would love a vacation where I could go to just read and read.
Rob has been eating a lot healthier and working out. He has always been super gorgeous and sexy but he is looking mighty fine! Mmm I just love that man!!!
I am now a nursery leader at church. It's so fun and nice that I can bring Car with me and he can just play. I do miss helping Rob teach the 13 year olds though.
We are going on vacation end of June!! We are so excited!! We're going to Colorado with Rob's family. We can't wait! We are driving so we'll also stop and stay in Utah for a few days so we'll get to see family there as well!!
Why do you get less diapers for more money the bigger they get?
Carson has been sleeping really well the last few nights which results in a wonderful nights sleep and a soaking wet baby and sheets. I have washed his bedding so many times lately.
That's all I can think of right now. Be back soon!!
Things on my mind
As most of you know, about 6 weeks after having Carson I came down with a serious case of postpartum depression. ( I still hate admitting that) It was awful. I had no interest in doing anything. I wouldn't get dressed, shower or eat. I was always on edge and every little thing made me mad. I felt like I couldn't get out of bed to take care of my sweet baby. Some how, I always managed to be able to take care of Carson and love him unconditionally but it was the other relationships around me that were suffering. I was so crazy! My poor husband had no idea what to do. He just didn't understand. How could he? He has never been through this and he never will. Finally I got on an anti-depressant. Oh my goodness did life change!! Everything was so much better! I am so much more patient with my Rob, I keep my home pretty spotless, I like to get up and go do things and I am just much, much happier.
The thing I worry about is the day I have to get off my happy pills. I missed one last week and boy that was not a good day. I felt exactly like I did before I got on them. Believe me, it isn't fun for anyone. The worst part is, you just can't make yourself feel better or be happy. It is physically impossible. At least for me that's how it was and other mommas I've talked to have said they felt the same. Anyway, I know that in about 5 months it will be time to start tapering my happy little friends and I am scared. I do not want to go back to feeling like I did. I don't want my relationship with Rob to go back to where it was. Everything is pretty perfect right now and I want it to stay that way.
Me before...
The thing I worry about is the day I have to get off my happy pills. I missed one last week and boy that was not a good day. I felt exactly like I did before I got on them. Believe me, it isn't fun for anyone. The worst part is, you just can't make yourself feel better or be happy. It is physically impossible. At least for me that's how it was and other mommas I've talked to have said they felt the same. Anyway, I know that in about 5 months it will be time to start tapering my happy little friends and I am scared. I do not want to go back to feeling like I did. I don't want my relationship with Rob to go back to where it was. Everything is pretty perfect right now and I want it to stay that way.
Me before...
And us now...
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