Happiness

Remember this post? I was so afraid to get off my happy pills. Well, right around Christmas time I started lowering my dose. (It had been about a year that I had been on them) Within a few weeks I was completely off of them and let me tell you, I feel great! I did have a few outburst in the first few days but that didn't last long. I actually think that the pills numbed me a little. For example, I watch shows like 'A Baby Story' and 'One Born Every Minute' all the time. Before I loved when the babies were born but now when I watch those shows I cry happy tears when the babies are born. It is just such a sweet moment and I can't help but cry. I think the pills sort of blocked out any kind of extreme emotion be it happy or sad. I'm so much more of a sap these days but that is totally fine with me. I feel so blessed that it was an easy transition and I really do feel great. I'm sure I will have my moments when I feel the depression creeping back in but for now, I am happy and life is good. 

15 (maybe) for Friday

Our master bathroom is finally finished! There were some really squishy spots in the floor, which meant rotten wood, so we had to get the floor redone. It took 2 days. I know that's not so bad but the mess and unfinishedness of it really bothered me. Thankfully, it is all done and the floor is brand new and not squishy :)

Were got a new bed! It will be delivered tomorrow and I can't wait. Our current mattress is causing me a lot of back pain. I am too young for that! We are getting a memory gel mattress. Heaven!

You know what's funny to me? How families have their own names for their nether regions. Lately, Carson has been putting his hand down there when I change his diaper. What comes out of my mouth is usually something along the lines of, "Car, stop grabbing your willy!" Now, when I change him he says, "Wiyee." So there you have it, our family calls it a willy. Or, in Carson's case, a Wiyee. Oh the joys of little boys :)

All 3 of us have been sick this week. A man cold, a baby cold and a mom cold. Oh you aren't familiar with the mom cold? It's when mom is sick but it doesn't matter because she's the mom and has things to do and people to take care of. Good thing we're so tough! Carson is so amazing though. He has never been truly sick. With  this cold he is his usual happy, normal self (most of the time) but just doesn't have much of an appetite and sleeps more. Rob's was pretty bad too but his is pretty much gone now. Get out of our home sickness!

Um, can it be spring already? I am so excited to see what our bushes and plants will bloom into! We also have a few huge rhododendron bushes in our front and back yard and I can't wait to see what color they are! It's kind of fun moving into a house in the dead of winter. Waiting for the flowers and plants to bloom is like waiting to open a present!

My little brother got to do a drum performance at his school the other night. We wanted to go but with the colds we stayed home. My mom posted a video of a few minutes of the performance on facebook. It totally made me cry! Like a lot! They were "hot proud tears" as one of my aunts would say :) It was just so cool to see him doing that! Oh man, can you imagine how bad I'll be when I see my own children shinning?  I'll be the most embarrassing mom ever! I can't wait!

Have I mentioned how easy of a kid Carson is? Seriously, he is making it way too easy for us and setting the bar so high for his siblings! He gets to have a binky when he goes to bed. As soon as I go to get him out of bed in the morning he hands it to me with a smile on his face. I love that he knows that he doesn't get it during the day and that is isn't an issue. Like I said, too easy. Kind of makes it scary to think about more kids....

Speaking of that little boy....he doesn't have a shy bone in his body. I love that he is friendly but don't love that  he just wanders off in church, goes through peoples purses, takes their cell phone and pretends to talk on it, plays with mens watches, touches peoples shoes, oh I could go on and on. It would be nice if he would just stay my me or Rob but no, this kid loves everyone and too him, everyone is his best friend. Okay, it's really really cute but as he gets older I'll have to teach him some serious stranger danger.

Well, that's all for now. That wasn't 15 but that's what you get! Have a great weekend!

Who I am

Do you know that I love maple bars?
Do you know that sometimes I just want to go to the store alone but when I do I really miss that cute little boy in the seat of the cart?
Do you know that I hate foot skin? If Rob's feet touch me I pretty much leap 60 feet.
Do you know that Michelle Duggar really inspires me?
Do you know that I hate the words moist, secrete, trifecta and intercourse?
Do you know that I have body image issues?
Do you know that I hate being in the rain and that I don't find anything romantic about kissing in the rain?
Do you know that the smell of onions makes me want to puke?
Do you know that my mom has always been on my side even when I thought she wasn't?
Do you know that I would love to have at least 5 kids?
Do you know that I have sweet teeth? It's beyond just a sweet tooth.
Do you know that there is nothing I love more than my son?
Do you know that I have trust issues?
Do you know that the word 'fart' always makes me laugh?
Do you know that I am typing this on my iPhone?
Do you know that I am randomly going to do posts just like this one?

House

We are officially all moved into our house! It's been a bit stressful but we are moved in and it is feeling like home. I still can't get over how much space we have. We have a living room and a family room. The living room is completely unused. I would like to get a sectional couch to have in there but it will still probably go unused. As much as I love having space I'm not loving cleaning. It's so much more work! Just vacuuming the family room takes more than it did to vacuum my whole apartment. We are so loving it though. The space is great for Carson too. And we have a huge backyard! Of course, we haven't been able to play in it of course. Thank you, weather. It's currently hailing. But come spring and summer we will be out there all the time! I want to get Car a swing set :) I'm going to post a couple of teaser pictures. I need a new battery for our camera so I was only able to take these on my phone. Keep in mind that the living room hasn't been painted yet and is still unfinished.

Here ya go!

Part of the living room. 

Car's room

Car's room. (Can you spot the baby?) 

Posts are on the way

I have been very absent from this little bloggy blog lately! We have been BUSY! I have lots to blog about so stay tuned!

:)

Womp womp

You don't have to read this if you don't want too. It will probably  be pretty Debbie Downer-ish.

Anyway, we are moving out of our apartment this weekend!! Woohoo!! We aren't moving into our house yet though. Still waiting for the paperwork. We will be crashing with my generous mama. I feel so bad that my family of 3 is going to be staying there but she is so willing to help us out and I am so thankful to her for that! It's been awhile since she's had a one year old in the house, hope she's ready ;)
 Back to moving out. It has snowed like crazy. I'm am SO not looking forward to moving in the snow!! Eww cold! Well, it's not like I'll be moving anything. Just standing there bossing the boys around suggesting what should go where. Luckily, we got a storage unit for super cheap so we don't have to cram my moms place with all our shtuff. I am do done with apartment living. We paid our very last rent check earlier this month. Woohoo! Our next payment will be our mortgage!! Ha! I'm excited about that now....

Moving on. Have any of you ever had to deal with Restless Legs Syndrome? It is HORRIBLE!!! I usually can't get to sleep until around 4:30 or 5:00 in the freaking morning!! The worst part is how badly it drives me crazy. It's such an annoying feeling. I've increased my iron and vitamins, I don't drink caffeine late in the day, I've been eating more bananas for the potassium but none of that has helped. I don't want to take any prescription drugs as they cause day time sleepiness and possible dependency.    Also, I'm off my happy pills and that has been a major adjustment. It would be so easy to just get back on them but I am trying really hard to be aware of my feelings and talk myself out of the depression. It isn't easy.

 I am so grateful for the gospel. I have praying with all my might and I can see the many blessings that I have and I can feel the Lord helping me and helping us.

Sorry for all the complaining. I'll try to post something happier next time!

A quick post from Arizona

Hi friends! I thought I would do a quick update here in Phoenix. We have been having so much fun! Eating lots of pizza and wings, having wii tournaments and just enjoying quality time with family and friends. Oh and as I'm typing I can look out the window to the right of me and see the beautiful, WARM sunshine and blue skies. It has been lovely, and a little hot weather.
Well there is a little sneak peak of our trip! I will blog all about it when we are home next week!! (If I get time as we'll have to be packing up to move into our house!)